three

to lay with her
is like moonlight and open arms
she is silver and white
he touches her breasts, he tastes
her lips
she is soft and mysterious

he is golden
she loves him as she admires the sun
his strength
is her secret pain
it burns to hold him inside her

I am ebony
and scarlet; my blood is their life
I watch, afraid
to touch them
hating myself for staining them

she needs my darkness
I am pain and relief from pain
he hates me,
raging inside because he knows
I am there

there is love
beyond their fear and pain
as the sun,
he cannot let go; as the moon,
she can never leave...

safe

The sometimes rain became harsh,
threw down some lightning
and a wave of crippling thunder
You stood in the wind and called for me
I flew to you, to keep you safe
Your face said you were strong
and you would bear the weight of the sky
but I still woke up with your tears on my shoulder
during the warm dark pain of night
The dream said you would fly across the water
and pass through the storm to find me waiting

Exploring you I find bare jewels
and steel cases and long lists of special words
and giggles tied together with white ribbon
and tiny poisonous snakes
There is something in your tight little fist that I may never see
sometimes I pry gently
I am not patient

The next night the sky is clear and the moon is bright
I tell you what I want
and you tell me to wait, though I reach with my words
My skin tingles with your remembered touch
and kisses of cold breeze
I reveal myself to you through my voice and my caress
noticing the advancing clouds
I bring you to me, into my arms
the tide of words subsides

emotional ocean

the waves swell again and the sky grows dark
my heart pounds, deep and strong
my face flushes with blood
the thunder comes and lightning flashes
desire ripping open the black wall of clouds
the storm roars through,
crashing against the water
I am naked and the wind pushes me
to rage and scream
and I begin to die again
losing my breath
waves crest and break and move on
sunlight reflected
from the undulating water
catches my eye,
making it glow green.

"perfect," she said

He dreamed
and in the dream he was
with her,
they laid together and she
curled up to his ear and
whispered
I love you
He smiled in the dark,
remembering
and she held
his hand and said
don't leave me
his sleep
was troubled
and he
mumbled
never
I'll never
she held him tightly
he woke up crying
and alone

sentinel

wait patiently
for her to come

and she will not know
that you have
always
been watching and waiting

too many lives
are wasted
but you have a purpose

you must not let her
tempt you
she will not know

you must not let her
fall

no reason

It caught me off guard because
I was, like, not listening
and all of a sudden it came in
and took my heart in its fist
saying pay attention
in real simple terms

and it was one of those times,
not like when your'e hoping
you can find a song that will
fill in the blanks in your head,
but more like it was just true

So I thought of her again
I only think of her like a
million fucking times a day
but this time I just got it,
I got a glimpse of the maze
between our hearts

sometimes I sit alone, you know,
trying to say on paper what it is
that's playing with my heart and mind
like so much monopoly money, like
some fucking game

because sometimes I can see it
like something that's all there
but too close to focus on, for some reason
or no reason